so, in an attempt to be a little more honest, i must confess that i’ve never really been a fan of the psalms.
shocker i know – i can hear it now “how dare you call yourself a Christian and denounce the awesomeness of the psalms, that’s like saying you don’t like CS Lewis … or Piper.”
HOWEVER, as of today, i am now a semi fan-ish of the psalms.
at church today our pastor talked a lot about prayer- and he was so right in pointing out that his purpose wasn’t to get us to pray more, but for us to recognize our need for the Lord, which correlates to our devotion in prayer. and he spoke a lot about how the content of Daniel’s prayers were of thanksgiving.
so #1: not only does my prayer life, or lack thereof, need an overhaul, but i also need to stop kidding myself that I can do anything without Jesus’ mercy, and #2: thanksgiving, or lack thereof, is something that God’s been convicting me of recently. but here’s the thing, how? how does one truly come to a point of really being thankful to God when you’re not. it’s a terribly arrogant and prideful place to be i know, i fully recognize that. but i left church kinda wondering how that happens? obviously it’s not something i can create for myself (cuz i tried last week and it didn’t work.)
so after waking up from a post-church nap (it’s an ancient Church tradition that the over-Churched like me are deeply devoted to) – i looked at my open contracts book and was utterly discouraged and disgusted at the misery it beheld. (a little dramatic i know). i’ve recently come back to being stressed and slightly (or a lot) overwhelmed by school – apparently it’s a constant battle for me. and in my attempt to study, i heard my mom’s voice in the back of my head, telling me to read my Bible when stressed.
here’s where we get to my pro-pslamish-ness. so i had no idea what to read. so opened to the middle of the book where the psalms are- the first thing I see is psalm 107, which starts like this:
“Oh give thanks to the Lord, for He is good. For His lovingkindness is everlasting. Let the redeemed of the Lord say so, whom He has redeemed from the hand of the adversary.”
at this point i literally laughed out loud cuz i definitely saw where God was taking this. but basically the psalm details the spiritual journeys and falls of a wanderer, a fool, and a man out at sea. they’re all desperate, they’re all in need of God’s salvation and mercy from the dark and desperate moments of their lives. and it’s when they cry out to God for help that He responds and comes to deliver. for me, it was God changing my heart to be thankful by reminding me of what He’s saved me from, the darkness that I was in in my past.
the psalm ends like this: “The upright see it and are glad; But all unrighteousness shuts its mouth. Who is wise? Let him give heed to these things, and consider the lovingkindnesses of the Lord.”
with Christmas feeling like it’s gonna come tomorrow here (there have been rumors of snow for this coming week), this psalm was such a reminder that Jesus’ coming brought gladness to God’s people. And the goodness of what Jesus offers shuts the mouth of the unrighteous. None of us can really say anything. All we can do is consider that God is good and experience transformation unto thanksgiving.