(henri nouwen said that a life not reflected upon is a life not worth living. i like henri. so here’s some reflecting.)
i got home from school today, honestly not in the best of moods. my last class as a 1L was gloriously capped off by a professor that went on a “caring” rant about how much our 2nd year would suck.
as i was driving home and feeling the wave of pessimism and fear that i commonly face during finals and hunger, i found myself asking “why did i come here?! what was i thinking?” i had friends and family back home in texas. why did i leave that all behind?
then i got home, and lo: a card from katie and a care package from kara. both had arrived the same day. and i was so blessed and reassured by their kindness. (also the sugar from kara’s care package solved a lot of my issues. i become highly irrational when hungry)
in the care and love of my friends, whom God was using to bless me, i was reminded by my good Father that He has not once left my side these past 258 days. not once. every sorrow, struggle, joy and laugh – He has been here with me. My Lord has never wronged me, nor abandoned me to face my demons alone.
that’s a long time.
i never thought i’d make it past 1.
but i have. because my Lord has been by my side every step of the way. and He will continue to be with me in each step. and that is blessing enough.
“Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they?”
Amen Lord Jesus.